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I am a 22 year old, very motivated, entrepreneurial, self sustaining, business owning guy. I started living life way too early, and have been doing it all on my own I don’t rely on anyone. At the end of 2010 beginning of 2011 I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. We decided to split it was not really mutual I ended it because she was just weighting me down (not important). I ended up spending alot of time at home, trying to make the 4 walls stop closing in, spent a lot of time online communicating with girls and just doing things that interested me. I have no problem with communicating actually i’m a little too good at it I have a very interesting swagger some may say and I am very self confident and I have yet to meet someone my age with so much going for them. So I was seeing maybe 3 girls at the same time. I eventually ended up speaking to a distant friends ex-girlfriend it must have lasted about a month until I found out she broke up with him and is currently single, so I did what any 22yr old with balls does. I asked her out a few times and her answer was that I was too close to her ex, I ended up making it seem right so she eventually said yes. Here is a little bit about her. She is a 28 year old that has a part time job and lives at home, smart and freshly out of a relationship. It seems as though her and my relationships both failed because our partners were the one to blame. Well back to the story at hand we kicked it off like a football on Super bowl.. Nothing felt better then seeing her and talking to her.. It was a natural connection, I haven’t felt it with my first relationship thats for sure. And my parents would always tell me you never experienced love. I think I believe them now. (sorry about the ADD)

Well all is well we had a great start I mean first date was perfect, Text messages and phone calls through the day. I ended up booking a lil mini get away from the both of us to a Casino since we both like gambling. She kind of canceled last moment and then the next day sends me a message saying that she does not want to continue what we have going and that she needs alone time and her own time and she has no time for a relationship but needs time to figure herself out. After asking if she would be still willing to see me she said yes.. So I just went with it. It took a while to get back in and she didn’t give up anything (sex) until maybe a month in. (whoa longest I waited). But anyway we were back on track everything felt right love song email exchanges, I miss you and want to see you texts.. etc… Eventually we had *** it was great we continued to talk felt like I was at the finish line. I ended up sending her an email just requesting for a bit more of her time, everytime we would date I felt like I had to make a reservation or appointment, I mean she would initiate the dates sometimes but not all the time. I wanted a readily committed partner if you say you miss me I want to see you! . I was sending the email to see if she would want to go do some activities during the weekend for MDW.

The response I get was a lot worse then the first or second time she spazzed. Although its all things shes mentioned before, Her email said shes not ready for a Bf/gf relationship, and that she doesn’t want to date her bfs ex in the future. and she needs time for herself. I called her to see if she was serious and she told me that this is where we go our separate ways and that she does not want to see me anytime soon etc… I was blown away full shock not understanding how shes willing to put all that connection down the drain through a text. Although mad as HELL I kept my cool and said if thats what you want and thats what makes you happy then please be my guest. I stopped talking to her.. She sent me a few text messages the day after.. She did mention she still wanted to be friends and stay in contact. I explained that she hurt my feelings so I kind of told her off. And stopped talking for another day. Eventually I got drunk and text her we started talking again…

Anyway here are some things to sum up incase I missed anything…
- Shes very indecisive and has problems making decisions (obviously)

And if you can give me your A/S/L just so I know who im getting an answer from I would appreciate it.

Thanks in advanced i’ve been so confused lately, no one to ask for advice.
I am not asking if I am willing to deal with the indecisiveness. I’m trying to make some kind of decision if this is normal. IF you love someone let them go if they come back they are yours for ever. Or If you love someone don’t let them slip away. And is it worth pursuing if she has made it clear to me just like I make it clear to the one night stand that I dont want to see you tomorrow… Its not if I want to because I do. She is very loyal and committed once i’m in the circle I guess.

And as far as the second answer to my question. I have no idea if you read this correct. Shes not my girlfriend and i’m not drunk.
I’m looking for more of a psychological analyses rather then some wise comment. I Didn’t Mean 2 Treat U Bad But ..

I have no idea where she is coming from. Although I make all the signs of explaining where I thing we should go and shes readily available until this 95)@*# switch gets flipped in her head. I have definitely realized her flaw with making a decision. But is it work completely ignoring what she is telling me and going completely on the feelings that we have mutually? Like the connection we have when we are together. Or must it be both.